Abandoned places in my mind___
It's very dark. Everywhere you look, there's nothing but deep, black darkness.
Hello..? The sound of your own voice makes a shiver go through your body. What are you doing here?
Suddenly the sound of a calm voice reaches your ear.
The show must go on.
The show must go on.
Inside my heart is breaking,
my make-up may be flaking,
but my smile still stays on
Right behind you lays a female. You can't see her face, as her back is turned to you, but it seems like it's a little light where she is. It must be, otherwise you wouldn't be able to see her.
So-sorry.. You move a little closer to her, and sits down. Her singing stops, and without even turning her head, she says:
This isn't a place for a human like you. You're about to say something, but she interrupts you.
But now that you're here, you have to stay till it's over. Let's begin.
A ruined life___
She sighs, and her head moves slighly.
I had a though childhood. I had a though life.
First part
The mother hugged her baby tightly, and softly licked her pelt. Her eyes were so full of love. Next to her sat another strong and wise looking cat-creature. He was also carrying a little one laying on his head.
They were a happy family; Iwee and Chewarz was the name of the grown-up wockies. Together they had to children. Itsya and Starz. They lived in the forest. Wild and free. Away from the city, and people who wanted to hurt them. Chewarz was hunting for their meals, and Iwee was taking care of the kids. It was a simple life, yet there were happy.
Look at them. So beautiful. Iwee smiled at her loved life-partner. He nodded, and quietly got the young Starz away from his head, and down to the ground next to his sister.Yes. And we have all our life ahead to see them grow..
They thought that. But everything perfect and happy is always destroyed. Very naive of them to think otherwise.
The same night Chewarz went out for fishing. It was fullmoon, and the best time of month for salmons. Iwee and the kids were all sleeping under a big chinaberry-tree. Save. Nothing could happen to them.
Itsya was a curios little kitten, and when she heard a noise from the bushes, she wasn't afraid to jump up and hiss at it. Her mom and brother were asleep, so she was the only one who heard the strange noises. She was lucky.
Soon a big man with a gun came out from the bush. Its knew what he was. A hunter. She'd heard about those. They killed wockies, just so they could make coats of their skin.
She gave a horrified whine, and fastly jumped up to the top of the tree. Here he couldn't get her. But looking down, the way too young wocky realized that her family wasn't save. It was too late to do anything. There was nothing she could do, but stare at the man killing her mother and brother. He shot them. Chewarz tried to fight him, but he kept sticking her knife into her. After a couple of minutes she felt to the ground. Dead.
Mom.. Starz.. Its felt the tears on her cheeks. The man took up their dead bodies, and left.
All there were back from the two wockies, was a little sea of blood.
I got salmons for plenty of years here! Proudly Chewarz walked towars the chinaberry-tree, with a bunch of fishes in his mouth. They all dropped to the ground, when he saw his daugther, laying in a pile of his wife's and son's blood....no....
Second part
Dad.. Its was getting older, but she still remembered that night. That terrible, terrible night.Yes, Its. She looked down, not knowing what to say to her dad.
It was a very starry night, and the two wockies were sitting on a cliff. From there they could see everything....Was it my.. fault..? Its' eyes were sparkling in a sad way. Chewarz shook his head.Of course not. You were a baby, sweetie. It was mine.. Now it was Its' turn to shake her head. She hugged her dad tightly and whispered:No.. no! Don't blame yourself! But they both did. They blamed themself. For not being there.
While they were sitting there, someone well-known were watching them. The hunter. The exact same hunter that killed their family. Now he was back, and he needed the skin of a proud male.
Its were about to fall asleep, with her head against her father's shoulder. But just before she closed her eyes, she heard it. The sound she had heard 11 years ago. Could it be?
The man was fast. He jumped against them, and shot. But Chewarz was faster. He attacked the man, growling and wild, without being hit with his gun. Atleast not the first time, not the second time either, but the third time the man got him.
The wocky dropped to the ground, breathing heavily. And the man raised his knife, ready to kill.No.. Not again! Its defeated all her fear, and jumped onto the hunter's back. Her teeths were sharp, and she burried them deep into his neck. He tried to cut her with his knife, but she only got a few scars. He couldn't stop the wocky. She kept biting, scratching, kicking until he felt to the ground as well.This is what you get for runing my life.. The young wocky said coldly, and gave him one last deep scar with her claws. He was going to die. He didn't had blood enough.
Its turned to her dad.Father.. Are you okay? She knew he wasn't. He could barely talk.Its.. Do-don't let them.. be-beat you.. Then he closed his eyes, forever.
Itsya spend many days crying. She didn't ate, she didn't sleep. She just cried. But she realized that crying was not gonna help her, so instead she began walking.
No goal, no destination, she was just walking. Until she, after some days, stood in front of a house. She looked at it. It looked so.. right.
Suddenly someone ran out of it.Who' you? A strange-looking girl with a shoe on her head grinned at her.Itsya. Its whispered, and felt how tired she was. The girl looked wondering at her.You need some rest, don't you? C'mon. Let's get inside. Her name was Kat, and she lived with two other strange-looking creatures. They looked like a mix between human and animals.
Its felt home staying with them, and slowly began trusting them. Maybe even love them. She didn't really knew if she could love.
Also, she noticed some changes about herself. Soon she looked like them. She liked it.
Third part
Itsya's life began getting better. She had friends, family and nice stuff. Even that she was traumatized, she felt okay.
Her attitude was not that friendly, and she wasn't really positive, but her new siblings and "mom" loved her anyway.
Her past had made a though and wary, but they were able to see through it. She was glad they were.
Also, she had good friends who took care of her. One of them helped her get wings.
One day her her sister, who was very different from her, found a boyfriend. They were both weird and silly, and Its found them pretty annoying.
This boyfriend had a brother; another wocky. His name was Loiha, and he reminded of Its in many ways. They slowly began to know each, and found out that they were pretty perfect for each other.
For a while it stayed like that. They had fun hunting their siblings and talking about how evil the world was.
Suddenly Lo's and his caretaker dissapeared. No one knew why. Its was afraid that she had lost him. She couldn't bear to.
So you can imagine how happy she was when he one day stood in front of her again. His caretaker had gotten cancer. That was why she hadn't been there. They said she was getting better though, and that she was going to be cured.
So Its and and Lo were happy again, and one day they decided to get married. After talking it through, they realised that it was a very great idea.
Also another miracle came into their lifes. A son. His name was Unshead_Tears, and they adopted him. He was a very cute little one.
Everything was perfect now. Itsya was really happy. Her life had never been better. But did you really think it would stay like that?
One day Its were sitting in her room, Kat opened the door and stepped in. Her eyes were full of tears.You better sit down.. Its.. She looked at her, and Its sat down.What is wrong, Kat?" She asked rather worried. Kat shook her head.I.. I don't know how to tell you this.. She took a deep breath.Lo.. and Garony.. They're gone.. It felt like a punch in Its stomach. She wanted to ask Kat what she ment, but couldn't say that words.Garony has passed away... And so has Lo... and Un.. Its' head was empty. She couldn't think. Couldn't talk. She wanted to scream, but she just glared into the air. Tears ran down her cheeks, she didn't care. She wanted to die. No, it wasn't true. Couldn't be.Kill me.. please.. She whispered. She could feel Kat's arms around her, but her body was cold. They were nothing but air. Not again, not again.
After her faincé and son's death, Its wasn't able to smile. Not once. All she could think of was how much she wanted to die. She wanted to join them, and the rest of her real family. Nobody could do anything for her. She became more isolated than ever. Couldn't think clear. Everybody thought that this was the end of Itsya.
But the 18-year-old female was stronger than people thought.
Do you really think Its will able to handle that? Its could hear someone talk outside her door. It was all her family, actaully. Chats, No, Kat, Sie, they were whispering, but she could hear them.It's worth a try. I know she will. Look at him. They're so even. Kat said that.Let's ask her then! That was No. But before they could knock at her door, Its opened it and looked out at them. She sighed.Do you have something to ask me about? Chats grinned nervously.Well, acutally.. A little wocky,who had been hiding behind Kat, appeared in front of Its. He was only about 2 years old, and he looked so calm and melancolic.He-... Its began, but stopped. He reminded her of herself as younger. Lost, alone, needing help. She took the little red wocky up, and smiled at him.Lai. Laienu. She didn't knew where it came from, but that was his name.Uh.. I found him in the forest.. Maybe you could.. you know.. take care of him.. Kat begun. Its nodded, looking happier than she had for many months.Laienu, my son. There might be hope for me, now. It was hard to explain why she suddenly felt all that love, for some strange child, she didn't knew anything about, but she loved him, and could feel that she always would. He was a miracle, a miracle that had appeared into her life.
What am I here for___
Full name//Pronounced - Itsya Linea Lange//Eet-see-a
Nickname - Its
Age//Birthday - 20//23rd month of Collecting
Gender - Female
Species - Human or quad-wocky
Recidence - Neopia Central, 266482 Chia Close
Languages - English, the language wockies speak
Siblings - Chatsy, Siesru, Noty
Hair colour - Natural green
Eye colour - Redbrown
Petpet - Mizja the glowing Mazzew
Hobbies/Interests - Drawing, Lai, playing saxophone, singing, trying to forget, music (Spleen United and Nephew)
Favorite food//Drink - Chicken and vegtables soup//Green tea
Favorite colour - Silver
Occupation - House architect
Status - Conused
Partner - None
Kids - Laienu
So material___
Fall
My saxophone
My family
Mizja
My Sketchblock
Happy memories
Nights
Leaves
My wings
Art
Losing
Therapy days
Pop
Joey
People who think they know about my pain
Death, how I hate him
Hunters
Weapons
Taste of blood
They are there___
Even that you can't see her face, it seems like Itsya lights a bit up.
I do have some people who cares about me..
What can I say about Kat? She's very special. Her mind works very different from mine, but somehow I can tell, that she's smarter than she seems to be.
Even that we not always agree, she's a very good person. She has always been there for me, and I appreciate that. I guess you could say that I love Kat..
Chats is a good brother. Even that he's very young, I think he's the person who understands me best. He talks to me when nobody else does, and I like that. He has such a brave heart, and he is so easy to love. And that's what I do and always will.
Though, there's still many things he doesn't know about life yet, so I just hope he won't get hurt. Sometimes he should be more careful.
Oh yes, No. I'll never quite learn to understand her point of view. We are very different, in all kind of ways. She would die for a piece of chocolate.
She finds the strangest things amusing, and she quite enjoys to annoy me, but in the end she's a good person and sister. I know she cares alot about me, and I love her for that.
Sie... He's complicated. I don't know if he's happy or sad. There's too much on he's shoulders, I think. He seems to young for all that.
To me it seems like he's searcing for something too. Maybe a past he doesn't wanna share with us? I wish he would talk more to me. I could help him. I'm somewhat worried for him, cause I really do love him.
Mizja, she is such a good petpet. She has been with me for a really long time, and I remember her having lots of fun with Lo's petpet.
She's weights a little too much, but that's okay with me. Some people call her fat, but her bones are just bigger than normal Mazzew bones.
I love her much, and it's nice having somebody that doesn't talk to you or tell you it's gonna be alright, when it's not. She's just listening to me.
The will to carry on___
He means everything to me.. She sounds like she's smiling.
Who? You ask quietly.
My son. Lai.
Lai is the light of me life. He gave me strenght when I needed it the most, and I love him to death. I might not be his biological mother, but I love him as if I was.
Sadly, I can't be all honest to him. I can't tell him about my past. It will destroy his mind. He can't handle it. Kat disagrees with me. She thinks it's best for him to know. Someday he shall, of course, but now he's too young.
Where he came from is a not answered question. I don't know anything about he 'real' parents. He doesn't remember anything either.
Now I hope faith will be nice to me for once, and let me keep my son.
Why did it happen___
She sighs deeply and shivers, like if she was cold.
It's hard for me to talk about this.
♥♥
They said you were evil,
they said I was as well
Together we found love,
that was easy to tell.
We needed each other,
I still need you now
More than ever,
because of all what I saw
A family torn apart,
another one, yes
Time might go through,
but I don't need you less
I pray to that the god,
who don't really care
Let us unite,
when I some day get there
A husband and son.
Did I really derserved,
to lose them this young
to be alone on this earth
I guess there was a reason,
it better be good
Cause my life is ruined,
Rotten, like wood
But I still have my memories,
we had so much fun.
You're always in my heart,
beloved Lo and Un.
This "love___
Its seems to think about something for a while, then she speaks.
Love.. it seems so confusing. I loved Lo and Un. I love Lai. And my family. I'm just not sure if I can love another.. male. It's hard. I want to love him, but it's so complicated. She sighs and shakes her head a bit.
Strange that they care___
Friends.. Such a strange thing. They care for you and doesn't expect you to give something back... You can hear that her voice contains warm and happiness while she speaks of those friends.
Claire___Is someone I haven't spoken to in a while. But I do know she cares about me, and I appreciate that.. I've known her for quite a while..Lang___Such a wonderful and caring friens. Sadly, I think she gets sad spending time with me. It seems like that. But I can't help it. I'm just a sad soul, I guess.Xal___I guess she's a friend.. but.. we don't speek very often..Cookie___He was very nice, but I haven't seen him in a very long time. I guess he's owner has left.Muffy___Muffy is one of a kind, really. She does everything she can to help me, and I'm glad to have a friend like that.Les___I used to speak alot to Lesnoi. Now we don't see each other that often anymore. I wish to spend more time with her, cause she's such a wonderful person.Darck___Oh Darck. I wish it would be less complicated..Sah___There's a long story behind our friendship, but now that I've found her, it doesn't really matter. I'm just glad she's here now.
Cats___
If you want a custom adoptable, just neomail nannakatrine. They're currently open, but trades are prefered.
Do they like me___
Some kind humans have made me different kinds of gift art. She seems sort of happy about that.
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Note: If you wanna see artwork of Itsya by Kat, you should go to her DeviantArt, nannakatrine. Also, Its used to be christmas, so much of the art doesn't match with the colours.)
Adoptables___
Fanart___
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Note: Oldest first)
By langdow
By langdow
By ansem_776
By nepkeete (*loveandmissing*)
By langdow
By langdow
By meiming
By pzent
By pzent
My tear leads the way___
If you find Its's story worth telling, feel free to link her from your petpage.
Continue now___
She lifts her hand and waves it a bit at you.
It's time for you to leave now.O-.. okay.. You say, not really knowing how to get away from here.
Don't worry, you'll return to your home save. It seems like she smiles a little.
Goodbye. Thanks for listening to another depressing story from a random stranger... Before you can say anything, you appear to be back where you were before this.
Music playing:The Show Must Go On
(C): Queen, sung by Paris Bennet (couldn't find the original one)
All art and ideas: By me. Please don't steal. Of course except Its' friends, fanart and adoptables. Also, the third part of the story is true. :'/
