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Selbstmord

Life After Death

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Family

Lyle95602

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This is my brother, Lyle. He's a really nice guy, but not too much more can be said for him...he's kind of dull.

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Aleu95602

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Ah, my sister, Aleu. I feel so bad for her, with losing her pack, her mate, and her pups. I could never imagine what that would be like. She seems to have gone...well...emo now. I've heard that she's a vampire, so I don't try to get close enough to find out.

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o_O_Daemon_O_o

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This is my other brother, Daemon. He's a great guy, although he can get pretty nasty when his inner demon posesses his body. Otherwise he's awsome! He's accepted me from the start, so we have no real conflicts.

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Friends

Arora

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My only friend, if not more than, Arora. I remember the first time I met this strong lupess, she had just survived a massive fall, and I welcomed her to stay with me to rest. I have been adventuring with her ever since, following her lead to where ever the path will take us. She really is the best Lupe anyone could wish for!

Love

Arora, I love you with all my heart. Please, promise me that you'll never leave me.

Stats.

Name: Selbstmord

Nick Name: Mord

Age: 18

Gender: Male

Species: Ghost Lupe

Pelt Color: Dark Blue

Markings: Jet Black Mane like Hair, Red Zigzag Leg Markings, Green Fire-Like Mist

Eye Color: Blank, No Pupils or Iris

Family: Aleu, Lyle, Daemon, wolfforce

Friends: Arora

Love: Arora

Pups: None

Other: Deceased

Biggest Fear

My biggest fear in life is mainly over with, but now I have a new one. My biggest fears are heights and loosing the ones I love. If anything were to happen to Arora, I don't know what I'd do with myself...

The Past

I was born into a different family originally. I won't mention the name of my owner though for their own sake. But I remember how happy I was. They got me when I was born and gave me my last name. I remember how much they loved me. I would cuddle with them and play with my other step siblings. We would always be together, and I was there for them as they got new pets, and even as the replaced one of my old siblings with a new. We had a great bond and were great together. But then there was that one day that scarred me for life.

I was living like any other day when suddenly my owner started acting differently. They wouldn't talk to me or even look at me. This was the oddest thing I had ever seen them do. Usually I was center of attention, but now they seemed to be bored with me. Then later that night I found out why they were being so harsh. We took a walk around Neopia Central, looking at all of the things together, but soon it turned out to be a trip to the pound. My owner said good bye to me, forever, no matter how much I begged and pleaded. They didn't even take a look back at me as I sat there in confusion. I waited at the edge of the cage, hoping that they would come back for me, that it was all just a mistake. But they never did, so I decided to give up all hope and after a while finally joined the other pets and resided at the back of the cage, waiting for my time to run out.

That is when I met this odd animal. I found that she was some kind of messed up Cybunny. She looked insane, and I believe she was. She was so repulsive that she had stayed in the pound for weeks now and was facing the death room. Others said that she was able to predict your future. And, seeing how I was in the same cage as her, I asked her if it was true. She admitted to her power. She even told me my future. I can still remember the exact words she said to me that day when she took my paw and examined it closely.

Oh, my dear, your paw says that you will be killed by someone close to you." She had told me. When I asked her if by close she meant physically close, like she was, but she told me emotionally close. So, that day I had learned that I would either be killed by my loved one, or killed by my own self....And I long so badly to have a loved one myself...But, after what the Cybunny said, well, I've been scared to be in a relationship in which I yearn for so much.

I remained in the pound for about another week after that, watching pets come and go; the painted, rare, and strong pets always being sought after. The people who worked there seemed worried when I wouldn't touch my food; I no longer felt the need to eat. I was sure that they were going to bring me out back where no pet ever returned. The doors opened one day and a young lady was looking amongst the rows of cages, obviously looking for a new pet. Unlike when I first came to this place I didn't spring up and rush to the front of the cage. I didn't even bother to notice that she had an eye on me. Finally one of the people who worked there came into the cage. When they put a leash around my neck I thought that I had run out of time. I slowly padded down the path behind the kind lady who usually would bring food and water, paws dragging, many thoughts buzzing through my mind, mostly about the happy times I spent with my owner and then ending the day they brought me here, not even knowing if I would survive or not. I looked up as she stopped and was shocked to see that she handed the leash to the lady who had been looking for a pet earlier. I was unsure at first, but she took me in to her home. There I met her other pets. But thoughts of my old owner kept coming up, and I really just wanted to be alone for a while. They all understood and gave me space.

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My New Life

Not too long after I had settled in I was romping outside, trying to think on the positive side of things. I had been with my new owner for only about a week then, the other pets had accepted me as one of them...well, all but Aleu, but Daemon told me that she was just like that to everyone. That is when I saw another Lupe. I had been hunting in a nice meadow not too far from my new home when I took a break and rested in the tall grasses. It had been an unsuccessful hunt that had worn me out after hours of endless stalking and searching. Then she had stumbled upon me. She looked very weak at the time, so I made room for her to rest too. Now Arora and I are on an adventure; something I have never experienced before.

So far we've braved a dangerous jump, struggled to escape a hungry mutated werelupe, survived a massive fall into a raging river, and just recently we have managed to find an old eerie passageway, a tunnel if you may, and ran into a trap (and hundreds of arrows flying toward you is not a fun experience!)

And who knew that that last stone was also a trap? I mean, a square with two lines going down the middle can mean dozens of things, right?

We fell victim to another trap, but thankfully this one led us to an interesting room, ok, tomb. Arora grabbed a beautiful bracelet from the tomb while I grabbed two necklaces and...a...noose. We found a crack in the wall and tore at it enough for the wall to crumble, revealing that we were somehow facing a deep gorge. We began to climb up the gorge and about half way up I finally told her...I finally admitted that I love her. I was surprised when Arora said that she felt the same way. But that was when I remembered the fortune told to me once more, "You will be killed by someone close to you."...I...I've never had anyone so close to me like Arora....

I died that day.

I hung myself with a noose that I had taken from the tomb.

As I drifted up to the clouds with my newly acquired wings I looked back on Arora. She had carefully brought my body back to the ground and slipped the noose off of my neck ever so gently. I watched her mourn over my former self, secretly blaming herself. I let her know I was there, and that it was not her fault by trying to nuzzle her, but I came off as just a warm wind, which she didn't even seem to notice. I watched from a small white cloud and decided that I could not let her live with my selfish mistake.

I had a plan, it was crazy, but it was also my last hope. With all of my might I leapt off of the cloud, wings flailing in the wind freely as I gained momentum. But, the strange part was, that when I looked back up to the clouds, I didn't see them, but I saw Arora instead. I gazed at her shape in the clouds until my thoughts were abruptly cut off as I fell to the ground. Slowly I recovered, being careful as I regained my footing. The wings and halo were gone, replaced by an eerie glow that surrounded me in its greenish flame-like mist.

I walked back over to Arora, excited to see her. But at first she was scared, confused. I looked at my former body and felt a chill run down my spine. I had caused Arora much grief, and I felt terrible about it. Thankfully she understood after a while that it was me, and she took me back. Together we faced the gorge again, ready this time to make it out alive.

Akemi

We were making our way through the mountain pass, but as we stopped for a brief rest we saw Arora's sister, Akemi. Now, I didn't have any real siblings, and I always thought that they were nice to each other. But these two give a whole new meaning to 'sibling rivalry'! Akemi actually tried to kill Arora, but thankfully she did not succeed. She distracted me with three rather large Lupes while she and her sister faced each other, one-on-one. Luckily, being a ghost comes in handy, because I can't die, and I found out during this battle that I can possess others' bodies! While attacking one of the large Lupes, I don't know how, but I managed to take control of him. I charged Akemi, and knocked her over, but I don't know why, she sent the other two Lupes away, as well as the one I possessed after I left his body. I told her I was a ghost when she inquired, but then she left, leaving me since I cannot die, but I was surprised that she didn't try to finish off Arora, who already has one paw in the grave. I'm glad though, don't get me wrong, but still, she must have been planning something....But I could not worry about it too much at the time, all I cared about was Arora.

Biigii

We have met a Kougra, she goes by the name of Biigii. Arora passed out while we were attacked again (she saved us by smartly bashing into the side of the cliff, causing a large boulder to fall upon the enemy Lupe) and Biigii came and helped me carry Arora back to her den. Well, after a while I remembered that I could just possess Arora and boy, her body was weaker at the time then she looked. But Biigii's cave was roomy for us all, and she even gave Arora's wounds some useful herbs that I helped spread. Arora woke up not too long afterwards, but Biigii left to go hunt. But all that mattered was that Arora was safe. When Arora came to and we were ready to leave Biigii was already gone, leaving Arora and I a meal. I'm a bit sad though that I never got to say goodbye to her, or thank her properly. Hopefully I'll see her again, then I can show her my gratitude.

Tini

When we left Biigii's cave we went in search of a rather interesting character named Tini. Tini is a Uni...an....undead Uni...When I first saw her I was too scared to move. I'm still scared of her, yes, but I bet you would be too! Well, maybe not, I don't know you well enough to say. But we went to find her so that maybe she could help me with my whole sinking into the ground problems(according to her I am having troubles staying connected with this realm, or something of that sort). Now she is leading us into the Haunted Woods, as alawys with Arora somewhere I have never been (and am kind of glad I haven't). But I wounder, why did Arora tell me to not let Tini see how afraid I was of her?

Dark Secret

While I was with Tini, she taught me how to pull myself back up when I start to sink back into the ground. I also found out that I am prone to sink when I get excited or scared. But she also told me something else. She told me that Arora and I share a twisted fate...that...when Arora dies, we probably won't be together...As much as it pains me I know that she can not live forever...I tried to get Tini to tell me more, but that was all she knew...it almost seemed like she had seen it before...like...it had happened before her very eyes...

Dreaded Place

After my session with Tini Arora decided to look for some long lost friends of hers. She said I'd get a kick out of them. Toko and Okiku, two Wockys. We found a hut that looked like it was in terrible condition, but when we got inside it was empty. The only thing we noticed in paticular was a note on the ground, reading, I don't know what to do, it's time to face the truth, I will never...be with...you.... Tini told us that Toko had passed and that Okiku had never been the same since. Arora looked absoultly distraut. I felt terrible when I saw the pained look on her face, the deep sorrow in her eyes alone made me want to cry myself. She was taking it out on herself pretty baddly, I just woundered, will she be ok?

Aleu and the Ghost Lupe

Once we left the dreaded hut we had no where to go. Arora seemed so lost, but who could blame her? But I had smelt an old scent, familiar, yet one that hadn't been around for a long time, for me at least. Alas, sister Aleu appeared, and she seemed cheerful as she asked if Arora would like to rest with her pack for a while. It seemed like a generous offer, but according to Arora they tried to persuade her to stay, half forcing her to never return to me again. But she had been saved by a lupe I had only heard about in stories. Infront of me stood the legendary Ghost Lupe. He got Arora away from my sister and her insane pack, but once we were far enough away he demanded something from Arora. He wanted her to show him something, looking at the spot on her back. I was shocked as, right out of the white spot, two beautifully large feathered wings burst. As beautiful as they were, they came out painfully for her, stained in crimson as blood splattered around her. Apparently, she had been born with ingrown wings, and the reason Akemi had tried to kill her was out of jealousy. Yes, for Akemi too had ingrown wings, but unlike Arora's birth defect she could not let her wings out at will; thus she said that Arora's gift had been a bad omen, and the only way to break the family curse would be the death of Arora. But she will never see that day, I will try to make sure of it.

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