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Name: FlyingFidelity
Alias: Fidelity (fi·del·i·ty)
Definition: Noun, Faithfulness or devotion to a person, a cause, obligations, or duties
Gender: Mare
Age: 23 in human years
Breed: Quarter horse x Connemara
Siblings: Half brother Dilkara
Love: In love with Crowe
Herd: Hooves of Grace
Power: Unknown
Quote: A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
Pelt: Chocolat brown
Mane/tail: Gold Ochre
Eyes: Royal Blue
Height: 15.1 hands
Figure: Slender, fragile looking
Markings: Wheat colored blaze and stockings. Fallow and Raw umber colored spots on all four legs
Accessories: Blue beads in forelock, sometimes wears a necklace braided with the hairs of Bandit and Lightning
Personality: Thinker, Fragile looking but fierce of mind, Changes mood really fast, Sarcastic, Likes to be alone, Bitter, Complicated.
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Still under construction..
Secret in my head
All those things unsaid
One day I'll tell you what I feel
On a sunny spring day I met a beautiful stallion with the name Bandit. We talked a lot and we stayed in a big field. He was kind. And well.. one thing grew to another. I spend a lot of my days together with Bandit and we became close friends. And suddenly my wandering days with Bandit were over, my brother had found a nice herd, called Adiual Lade, and together we joined. I made many new friends, one of them was a handsome Icelandic stallion, Kjavi. There was something about Kjavi that immediately caught my eye, yes he was beautiful but what attracted me most was his beauty within. He was very gentle and comforting, though he was small he was still bigger than me and I always felt safe around him. I liked to put my head on his soft chest and listen to his pounding heart when I fell asleep. But how much I might enjoyed those days together with Kjavi, I still missed my dear friend Bandit.He must have missed me too because he had tracked us down and joined the herd too. Now I had to split my time for Kjavi and Bandit, which I didn't mind.
One day I was playing with Bandit when a being attacked us, he shielded me and as he fought to save me, I knew that he wanted more than just to be best friends with me. He turned to me and told me his my feelings, but I didn't accept it, I loved him as well as another, he was my best friend. And at the same time the warm feelings I cherished for Kjavi began to grow and flourish. I began to sing a song when he was around me, a song which I sung with me heart. It was about how I felt like coming home when we were together. Kjavi understood what I was trying to say and he said he loved me back. I was so happy, ooh if I only could have known what would come next..
I should have paid more attention to my friends, for loving Kjavi I left Bandit heartbroken and devastated. He had damaged himself and didn't care for anything anymore. I was being ignorant, too absorbed with my own bliss. My punishment came on a rainy night.
Picture by Ange (enshrine)
I don't remember it very clearly because I try to forget this memory, but it was evening and very dark, the moon was only shining faintly and it was casting strange shadows over the herdlands. It had been raining all day and I was standing under a tree, trying to stay dry. The rain fell on the big leaves above my head, in a constant rhythm that made me feel sleepy. But once in a while a few raindrops dripped on my back, keeping me awake. Soon Kjavi came around and kept me company. The following part became a bit blurry in my mind but Bandit appeared too and he told me he had visited the dark faerie and made a deal with her. But she had lied to him and turned him into a terrible monster at day, and an angle at night. He told me that this curse could be lifted, but I was needed for this. I immediately said I would help, but then he told me that he had to visit this evil faerie again, before midnight, with someone who would love him endlessly. I got scared and very very confused. What should I do? Was there even a way out? Could I go with Bandit and be with him, but never be fully happy for Kjavi would always be with me in my mind, or should I stay with the only one I've ever loved, letting Bandit live a life full of pain? How could I make such decision, I was still so young!
After a few hours of painful thinking, making my decision and then changing it again I finally picked my choice. I wouldn't stay with Bandit all my life, but I had this plan in my mind to trick the faerie. But sadly Bandit couldn't understand it all and he ran away, I was scared he would harm himself so I ran after him. I still remember how scared I was, how blurry the world looked and how soaked I was. I finally found him, laying on the ground with an injured leg. I tried to help him but only made everything worse. Soon one of those disgusting two legged creatures, I think they are called human, found us and he took Bandit with him because his house wasn't far away. He fixed Bandit's leg but I didn't know that. Kjavi asked me to go with him but I refused and together we rescued Bandit from the human. But instead of being thankful he was mad and he tried to attack me. I felt so little and helpless and I didn't know what to do, Kjavi tried to protect me but Lightning was my saviour. Brave Lightning was Bandit's brother and they shared a special bond, only he could calm down Bandit. When midnight went by he explained to me that he would always stay an angel by night and an monster at day. I remember he told me "love killed me" and he felt like he had to kill me when he was this monster, but also felt like he should save me when he was an angle. Two different equines forced into one body. That is why he has made his journey far out to a place where he cannot harm me. But before he went Lightning and Bandit pulled out some of there mane and braided a necklace for me, so I would never forget them. I took it and said goodbye to Bandit and to Lightning. Lightning promised me he would always protect me.
Already driven slightly crazy by this pain that burned my heart for not being able to love Bandit like he loved me, this was too much for me. It was only a few hours later when the shock really came, and let me tell you, it came hard to me. I had done the wrong thing, I had turned a beautiful stallion into a monster. It was all because of me. When I met Lightning afterwards I even learned more, by trying to protect me and stopping his brother I had broken the special bond between them. Before this they could always hear what the other thought even when they were miles apart, but this all vanished.
I tried to banish these horrible memories, without luck of course. And I tried to focus on my life with Kjavi. But another tragedy had to happen. Kjavi lost his memory and didn't recognize me anymore. He was still seen around me but I was like a stranger to him. He left the herd after a few days and I have never saw him again. Not even healed slightly from the horrid things that had just happen, I could not put up with this. First I had two, now I had no one. All this sorrow broke something inside me, and I'm afraid it can never be healed again.
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Pictures
All pictures by me, no stealing please!
Pictures by others, don't touch! You try to steal this and I'll bite your head off
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Friends
Some of the uni's I've met:
Kalaador
Spyder
Xaeor
Maki
Kjavi
Lightning
Bandit
Trance
Bou
And my dear brother: Dilkara
Lyrics
I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart
And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall
All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better
I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting by heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart
Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart
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